Senoritis

I'm pretty sure I wrote about this before

But now it's more necessary than ever

When I was a sophomore I was dating a senior and I got this mindset that was just like his

and it was bad

like I convinced myself that school was not important and everything I didn't do homework at all like at all and I got really bad grades

Just because well a few reasons, I only hung out with Sam and his friends who were about to graduate or already did, my parents never ever like cared about my grades and whatever and I didn't really realize how one bad year could affect my whole high school career.
Anyway, so yeah I just was all like lol h8 ALHS never do homework I'm a rebel

And then junior year happened and I had to take TWO MATH CLASSES and also my soph year I was in gym all year

like w/e those years were bad

and now I'm a senior

and my senoritis is horrible

mostly because I do the work and then don't care enough to turn it in

or I'll like do anything possible other than school work

except math (don't even ask y)

Like I'll sit down to do a project and then just will not do it like I get mad at myself.

it's stupid

once you get letters from colleges saying you're accepted there's literally no motivation

even though I KNOW that this still counts

I don't know idk

I have good grades but like i don't know how honestly

and it's the last day of the first semester so it's just going to get worse and i probably won't care

wow that sounds horrible

:x